Recently, in observation of my present space, I become a little bit overwhelm with my life. I was approaching the anniversary of many significant milestone changes in my life and felt a little perplex about my present. I admit I have come along ways Physically, Spiritually, Mentally, Socially, Environmentally but something was missing. There was some emptiness. In my observation here's what I discovered...
My past was not my present and the only way I will live in fullness is to STAY PRESENT. Now that may sounds easy but it was quite difficult. The difficulties came from visiting the past to justify or rationalize or measure past events to my current. This was causing an enormous amount of pain and confusion.
Although, I know that where I am NOW is so much better than my past. However, I couldn't shake the emotional feelings attached to it. This state caused me to question my decision after 3 years of transition to NEW and BETTER. So here is what I DECIDED to do:
BE HONEST!
I realized that my view of my life now was not what I was desiring for my present and I could not STAY HERE. In this space, I dealt with the real me others don't see and I didn't like it. I removed the mask.
BE GENTLE!
I recognized that I was doing and giving my best. I replaced the blame, shame and guilt with gratitude, appreciation and acceptance. Reminding myself that everything is as it should be.
BE PRESENT!
I decided that I was going to LIVE IN THE NOW. If I was experiencing something that I didn't feel good, I stop and ask "Is this NOW?" And if the answer was "NO", I released it and chose something different for my NOW.
