BE Still and KNOW... The PAUSE EFFECT.

This morning I was gifted this picture by a sister friend of mine. As read the words I began to reflect on my week and this amazing journey I am experiencing.  Last Monday I had a "me moment".  This moments are seasonal.  They dont last long however I experience them so I can grow.  In these moments, it can be quite fearful because it is emotional and expressive.  It incorporate personal and intimate space that is not for public exposure.

So this past Monday, I had a "Me Moment."  It was dark, withdrawn, quite and emotional.  During this time, I say little but I feel much.  It is not a place where I can be shifted unless the process is complete, so I let is work its way through me.

I entertained a few conversations of my male friends and most thought they could help out.  I was offered to hang out and I declined.  So finally, my spirit prompted me to text my brother.  This brother is not just any brother.  He is one I have and can share intimate spiritual space without the physical interaction.  We are spiritually connected.  I texted him, "have you ever been scared?"  And he responded yes.  I continued by asking him "did he ever feel alone with the call on his life?"  And he then asked me, if we could chat?  Without hesitation, I answered yes and he called.

We talked for awhile about the space I was in and he share also of his current space.  During his sharing, he stated that he repeat a simple prayer daily.  He said, "I know All things are working together for my good because God loves me and I am called according to his purpose."  I asked him to repeat it and he did.  By the time he said "because God loves me," I was sobbing over the phone.  My face was waterfall wet and I felt so released.  In that moment, all that was working through me to be express was surfaced and exposed.

I silently asked him to pray that simple prayer with me again, and he did.  My "Me Moment" was resolved and I was rejuvenated in my BE.  From that moment, AMAZING MIRACLES began happening.

Sometimes you have to PAUSE, it makes the difference!  

JUST A PRAYER AWAY.

Early this morning a get a call from a strange number, so I answered.  To my surprise there was no stranger on the other end of the phone.  A voice says, "Is this Tomika, my granddaughter" and I answered yes.  There was a scratchy voice with a cough.  Sure thing, it was my grandfather on the phone.  He says to me that he miss me and he just want to call.  This is his new number.

We chatted for a few minutes as he talked about is fathers day and tomorrow being his Birthday.  I said "your birthday?"  He said yes, 79 years old.  And in that moment I began to smile in gratitude for still having an "Elder in my Village."  What a blessing it is to have him here.

Shortly after conversing with him, he said "your grandmother will kill me if I dont give her the phone."  So I hear the passing of the phone and a tiny voice says, "hey sweetie pie."  She immediately goes into her usually talk of how much she misses me, loves me and is praying for me.  As I sat and listened to her fragile voice, my heart smiled for so many reasons.  She went on to say, that she wishes the best for me.  She asked me about my business and if I was still writing.  I responded "yes."  So goes on to say, "keep writing, you are an intelligent young lady, you have something powerful to say, let God use your mind and lead you".   She says I am proud of you and that she tells everyone about me.   She let me know that she gave my book to some people to read, and they liked it.

After a moment or so, the conversation went into her prayer for me.  She prayed that God will never leave me nor forsake him.  That All things are possible with God.  She prayed scripture after scripture.  As I sat on the phone and listened to her prayer, I began to cry because it is the prayer of the righteous that avails much.  My grandmother is a praying woman.  She has been faithful to the call of God on her life.  She has never not called without a prayer.  The difference this time, I listened and submitted to the prayer. She ended by saying, she worries about me.  I told her to keep praying for me, I needed her prayes.

Often times, we forget about our elders and become to busy to share some time with them.  Shame on us, ME, for not making time for those who pray for me.  Never let life get too busy that you cant honor your elders because your elder days are approaching.  Remember that what you give, you shall receive in return.  I am GIVING HONOR where HONOR IS DUE.  I HONOR MY ELDERS.